My firstborn, known online as Nova or Thing 1, had an amazing 2nd Grade. It was his first year in a Special Education class and a different school than our neighborhood "home" school. My second-born, known online as Nev or Thing Two, had an incredibly tumultuous year, but also ended it on a great note, thankfully. It's amazing what the correct supports can do!
My last blog post was almost two years ago.
When I review my life, I tend to compartmentalize it all. For my childhood, I only have a feel for how old I am based on which house we lived in at the time. Adult life was defined by where I was working. Married life also defined by where we were staying. Then came kids, and it all became a blur: we were in Springfield, then moved to Bloomington-Normal, but I am hard-pressed to tell you when we made the huge ... considering we bought a house, you'd think I'd remember the year, right? Nope. Blur.
But.
May 2017, less than a month after that last blog post, I have seared in my head. Some things I had been squelching finally hit the fan. I was thrown into a major crisis. My mental health was severely taxed.
And.
I dug deep. Reached out. Dragged myself to one Shamanic Breathwork (TM) session, then another, then another. Interviewed therapist after therapist after therapist. Leaned in. And stubbornly took one step after another.
Today I am in a much better place, mentally, than I have ever been.
I still struggle, of course. I utterly suck at daily self-care type things. I am always buffeted and swept away by the kids and their needs.
But it's now summer vacation.
This blog post is one of my ways to get my daily self-care in.
I am determined to get a post a day in over the next couple of weeks.
Get the writing, and creativity, flowing again.
See you tomorrow?
Yea! I'm glad you are back!
ReplyDeleteBlogs are cathartic...and I hope that getting back into writing helps you process your day/week/life. Motherhood is tough stuff--it taxes you physically, emotionally and mentally. I will admit that I was probably a little unstable through those years as well. You sort of lose yourself as you are trying to raise your little ones. I'm glad you identified a problem and sought some help. Just know that it gets better. It does. Okay...so there are still bumps here and there, but you make it. And your kids do too.
Looking forward to hearing about your adventures...and those of your beautiful kids!